Saturday, September 22, 2007

One Year....

This has been a very emotional month for me. Today is our One Year Anniversary for our Log in Date with China. We have been “pregnant” for one year. I believed we would have Mari in our arms by Christmas of this year. However, that will not be happening. I don’t mean to be a downer but, sometimes it is hard not to be. I don’t understand why we can’t be blessed with a child. I don’t understand how two high school sweethearts, who are best friends, financially stable, and have so much love to offer can’t become parents. Having RA hurts me physically, but no amount of physical pain can compare to the pain my heart has by not being able to share my days with a little one.

Hopefully next month we will have better news. I guess you could say I am pretty negative about our adoption right now. I hope this finds you all doing well.



1 comment:

Ricky, Heather & Abigail said...

Hi Alicia,

Just checking in on your family. I am so sorry you are feeling down. I know the wait is horrible!!! Although I hope you can find some hope in knowing that your dossier is probably in the "review room" right now. That is a HUGE step forward. I am always available to chat. Our local group is going on an outing on Oct 20th, we would love for you and Greg to join us. Email me for details.

Thinking of you,
Heather Wells (our hubby's work together)